The Power of Words — What are Symbols and how do they connect to the Astral Realm?

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I want to add that while this symbolic realm can be explored with the whimsy of a child who doesn’t know what she has to lose, this realm can be dangerous. At first, you may also feel as if you’re going insane as you’ll begin feeling and perceiving what ‘isn’t there’ or doesn’t seem to be real, even though it is real. And that’s another reason why it can be dangerous. When you figure out how real it is and begin to see things you don’t like, how are you gonna handle it? That’s up to you, however, the truth is liberating and it’s only through traversing this realm that we can find our footing and understand how to handle it all with relative grace, if possible. I still say…Fucking go there. It’s fun once you get past the scary shit!! No but really, don’t go in halfassed. I believe that people can do themselves harm if they go in with one foot, they can perceive these echos, but they’re still listening to the physical realm that tells them they aren’t real. That’s a curious case in which the awareness might be what causes something to eat away at them rather than liberate them. It’s liberation they must grant themselves with their own hands. The echos are real, you have to believe it. Then you also need grounding and balance. There are layers to this and it isn’t easy to go this gracefully, but you learn with time

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I’ll quote myself first off, but this is important as it dawned on me that nothing else is really gonna make sense unless I explain what I mean by ‘symbols’. I tend to use words not as they’re meant to be used necessarily, but they take on an entirely new meaning for me

“Once we detach ourselves from all the labels and assumptions, then we can begin to use words to explore something you will never read about in a linguistics book or a psychology textbook. Enter the realm of symbol and abstract, a world with no bars, a world where you’re only a slave if you choose to be, the realm where words are yours and there are no rules, a world where we reach just a little closer to the roots of our human language

…what exists separate from words that words can aide us in exploring if we let them. There’s an entire universe that exists before we give things form and structure and definition and say what they are because what they are isn’t in a word or even the most eloquent string of them”

I would describe the symbolic realm as what is but what isn’t. We can’t see it with our physical eyes, but we know it exists because we can feel it and because can perceive it. Walking here feels unsafe and perhaps we do risk much in traversing it as we’re not dealing with the corporeal anymore. That’s damage that even if fatal, at least we can understand why it happened. While we don’t risk permanent death in the symbolic, abstract realm, we risk losing or damaging things in ways we can’t comprehend. Someone may have an entity attached to them and not at all be aware, yet it’s there draining and siphoning, eating away at them. The entity can’t be seen with physical eyes in most cases, but the damage occurring is real and worse because this isn’t something that follows logic or rationality. It follows a much higher order of understanding

In the astral realm we’d be able to see this entity clearly, but in this physical world we can’t. These two realms exists as one and if we’re not aware of that fact, we’re more vulnerable. We’re basically walking around with a tattoo on our forehead that reads ‘dumb ass’. Just saying. Anyway…

What happens there happens here and vice versa. That’s the takeaway. But most of us cannot see that realm. I can’t. But I understand it and I know why I do: Its threads and tendrils, its ‘coding’ is built in symbolism. Its fabric is not logical, it’s symbolic. Symbolism is a means of working and creating within that realm without actually seeing it. Symbols are the echo of the astral realm in the physical realm

Someone may be able to perceive that something is draining them without being able to see the entity doing the draining by feeling which is also an echo. Energy is another echo. Feeling, energy, and symbols are tools by which we can actually create within the astral realm and that is a highly important skill because like I said, what happens here happens there and what happens there happens here. If we can work with what’s happening there, we can affect what’s happening here in the corporeality, to our physical bodies, to our brains, to the world itself  and we can affect those things as well if we understand how to use feeling, energy, and symbols

I can now justify why I’ve always since I was a child felt arts were sacred. They are. Artists of all shades have the ability to not only create in this physical world, but in a way that etches itself into the astral realm. To be clear, that’s a very powerful ability and shouldn’t be used haphazardly or be thought to be a solely saccharine skill as it isn’t. It very much isn’t. If you’re aware of feeling and energy, you’re not just gonna be aware of what feels good or what fills you, you’re gonna be aware of opposing forces and how they play with each other and what they do. Energy is very massive aspect of the echo we receive of the astral realm. Feeling and symbolism are too. This is why it could be said what you feel is more real than anything. And don’t think that’s a limiting concept either as when you accept how real they are, you’re also taking on a greater rite: The ability to manipulate feeling and energy and thus create in a way that imprints itself into the astral realm as well as the physical realm

I believe feeling and energy are a lot easier to understand than symbols, though. But make no mistake, as humanity has aged, its slowly but surely detached from these fundamental aspects of the realm that is that we can’t see with our physical eyes. Symbolism was the first to robbed and this occurred after the advent of written language. As someone who’s passionate about writing, it may seem counterintuitive for me to say such a thing, but what a creative writer does is give word to the wordless. So it’s a means of using words to work withing that symbolic, wordless realm

I want to make it clear that that symbolic realm isn’t the same as the astral realm. It’s the coding, it’s the threading, it’s the fabric,…at least for us as human beings

I also have a theory on how we gradually lost touch with symbols, but I’ll save that. The important thing to know is that words aren’t their definitions, they’re what you feel, they’re their energy, they’re what they represent. Fire we know to burn our skin, to scar us if we get too close for too long,…fire we know is wild and untamed, it’s enrapturous and grand, it’s painful and beautiful, it’s passionate and…and at some point we realize what it is isn’t able to be fit into vocabulary, into any words, not even a collection. We can try and creative writers do our best, but to speak of what things really aren’t isn’t an easy task. What fire is is something subjective. To some it’s destructive, to others it’s vital. To me it’s vital and beautiful and incredibly erotic, torturous but in a pleasurable way. What is this? What am I doing here? I’m looking at fire as something symbolic. There are so many layers to it and at the most primal levels, it cannot be uttered because there just aren’t any words for what fire is. That’s what I mean by detaching ourselves from the physical world to understand what things really are. When we detach ourselves, what they are becomes so much clearer but also so subjective it’s uncomfortable, almost aching, it’s scary and intimidating because it is us. It’s you. It’s me. What is the ultimate unknown to your own self? It’s you. That’s why so many of us shun ourselves and reject contemplation

But have no fear because you’ll get the hang of it as you surrender to its wonder. That was a very basic explanation of symbolic perception and trust me, there are so many more layers to it than that and it has infinite depth and breadth. Aspects of a symbol can hardly be considered a single symbol. Every symbol echos into the other and expands itself through every other one in infinite intricate ways. This universe is one with infinite facets and infinite layers. It’s infinite. That may be why it’s so intimidating, but to an adventurer, it’s so exciting and exhilarating. I’m an explorer so I never could deny it once I saw it even if sometimes it hurts, I know it’s for the best

In our daily lives, we may come across words or objects or anything that exists physically that makes us feel something indescribable, something that delivers us a message that there’s something else there. That’s a hint that there’s something vital there to us symbolically, something that exists in our astral realm. So even if you can’t astral travel, you can still recognize the echos and learn how to manipulate and create within that realm without actually being there

Symbolic perception is my perception. It’s just how I understand the world. When I look at anything, I don’t see what it is in a physical sense, but in that symbolic sense that exists without words. It takes time for a clearer image to unravel of what it is to me because it has to be processed through such an infinite plane of understanding. I can’t force it. I’m a slave to it. I can listen, I can feel, and I can give it fuel as it goes along on its journey, but it takes time and it’s supposed to. The result is something immense and grand and something that has an existence in every aspect of my universe and my astral territory

I’ll be honest and admit that this is a bit of a handicap in terms of existing in the physical realm and adjusting to it. That’s taken me a very long time…to learn something that comes so naturally to most, but I think if you perceive this realm first, you may actually be at an advantage as most people may live their entire lives not being entirely aware of it whereas if you’re born there, you’re forced to become aware of both

Anything of any significance to you,…just take it, look at it, think about what it makes you feel, you’ll notice those first pings have no words. Stop there for a while and explore. Get to know its primordial building blocks, the symbolic and abstract. Your conception of what it ‘is’ will be a lot more prolific and full. These aren’t just the fundamental, primordial pieces of what these ‘things’ are, but what you are. This is a means of understanding yourself in the most intimate way possible. While that might not sound too savory to many, understand that once you get get your footing here, what’s in the palm of your hands transcends this physical realm and our assumed limitations here. It’s a gateway to magick, personal and universal magick. Magick that affects you, and magick that affects the physical world and people. So yes, it’s actually pretty badass but there also needs to be grounding and understanding. While the spirit can’t die, we can affect our connection with our spirit in such a way that become seriously disturbed and while it’s curable, will you cure it?

So symbolism is as I said basically the coding of this other realm, this realm we can’t see while awake and with our eyes. Using them to actually affect that realm is another story, but this is a basic necessity to understand if you ever want to do that with any skill. That skill is magick. Many of us use magick without even knowing it, but if you knew what you were doing, it may astound you. As true as the message is that it isn’t all fun and games, learning how to create in a way that etches it into the astral realm, learning how to use the tools we were endowed with to pierce the veil into what is not seen, is the means to a fulfilling life. Understanding symbolism is not only useful, but vital, and worse it’s one of those tools that has been skillfully ripped from our hands. So take it back. The invitation is there and always has been. Yes you may feel as if you’re losing your mind at first, but then you’ll realize you never had it and you’re finally finding it. Surrender, walk in, take the first step. Dare to, dare yourself, be, live, explore, see, find, be, know, be, reclaim, see. Paradox is no longer paradox. Somehow it makes more sense than anything else

Consciousness Hijacking, an Energetic Vacuum II

Inertia, energy arrested at first beating and pulsing of the blood, the flesh frozen still and weightless synergetic loss–

So I’ve been thinking about it more and I recognize my current trial is to work through my inertia. And the fact is, as a child I was extremely energetic, almost too energetic. I was so full of life you’d have thought I was life itself, but unfortunately, we are creatures of oppositions. If we possess something, we also possess the opposite trait in equal capacity. I’m a creature of extremes which means when I feel something, I feel it madly and I feel it truly and I feel it feverishly. Whether I possess it or it possesses me becomes blurred. We are one. This can make me seem like a very chaotic person with no grounding and I possibly am, but I don’t think I’m meant to be a peaceful, calm, rooted person. I simply have to learn how to handle my energy, my pain, my destructive tendencies, my depressions, my anxieties, my suicidal thoughts, my doubts…my intense, stasis driving doubts. They paralyze me and I can’t stand inaction, I cannot stand apathy. I become an apathetic person even though below these immense doubts lying on the surface of me, chipping away at my skin, pealing away like an old paint mural…I am the complete opposite of apathetic. The energy within me is like the sun and I can feel it, but I’m unable to express it because of my doubts, my anxieties

I decided I should write out changes I want to start making that I know will lead me in the direction I need to be going in. I suppose in doing so I’m both exploring myself as well as making a pact with myself. I’m expressing what I lack and what I need without the pain of selfhatred for not being this absolute perfect being at 25 and without regrets for how I’ve been in the past as I regret nothing. All ‘mistakes’, we learn from, we remember, we know what we need to know

A friend suggested to me I may be more of a ‘completionist’ than a ‘perfectionist’ and she might be right. There’s something that’s just not allowing me to enjoy the process because I become so focused on the end product when that’s such an absurd inclination since what we create is largely the result of a massive collection of happy accidents. Nothing ever happens as we expect it to and that’s beautiful to me. It truly is. I love that about life. It would be so incredibly boring otherwise and I can’t stand boredom or lack of novelty

Maybe this is a form of grounding for myself. I believe balance is necessary certainly, but in any case…

1. I recall how I was as a child with fondness like it’s something I’ve lost, but I haven’t lost it, it’s simply become eclipsed by my selfdoubts arising from the fact I hold myself to strict standards. I expect immaculate perfection at first draw and it’s just unrealistic. In truth, I have so much zeal for the beauty of experimentation…trying things, going out of my comfort zone. As far as I’m concerned, fuck the comfort zone, it doesn’t exist for me and I have no wish to set foot there

As a child, I didn’t hold myself to such insane standards because I was just in this process of exploring the world without bars, exploring myself, my passions, my love, my fire…I was a very very creative child, and though I had the problem of starting projects without finishing them because my passion was often shortlived and easily diverted to something new and shiny, something novel, I allowed myself to freely explore and I need to open myself to that energy again

I aim to live in allegiance with my passion, my soul, my spirit, my heart, my raw, beating heart, my fire that I so cherish. I will let them lead the way. I will shed all of my selfdoubt and this insane standards I’ve held myself to since I was 11 and will rise anew, flesh burning but not shedding, no longer degraded. I will follow my spirit

Any lessons in sobriety and discipline I’ll learn only after I’m able to break these chains. I won’t happen overnight and I don’t expect it to. It’ll happen gradually, and then seemingly all at once

That’s been my experience in the past…Things that plague me so greatly, I get to a point where they no longer touch me at all, but it does take putting in the emotional work. But I’m not one to shy away from a challenge. I love a good challenge

2. Pain…My philosophy is to face myself unflinchingly and that means being aware of my pain and oh how aware of it I am. Yet still, there’s a part of me that wants to run away, that does run away. I despise that trait, but I know I can change it. I’m learning. A huge lesson for me came after two suicide attempts this year that I was very lucky to survive…I realized I could feel my suicidal thoughts and even delve into them without fully surrendering to them. Part of my philosophy involves surrender, but also power. I seek surrender for the sake of power. It’s through surrendering to my pain I will learn how to explore it without listening to the voices calling me to carry out destructive acts upon myself

That sounds like a nobrainer, but it was a huge revelation to me and really, in the case of something as grave as suicide, it sounds very counterintuitive, but I do believe this to be true

3. Take action. Just take action. Don’t let myself be held closed in this stasis chamber, in this cage when I’m the only one with the key. Just act, just do, just live. Live with my spirit and my heart and they’ll lead the way. Any doubt I have is a tacit admission that I don’t fully trust my own self, but I will come to only by proving to myself I can. So now it’s time to do that

I want to keep it simple. These things are simple, but not easy. They are doable. This is the stage I’m in and I sense that my next stage is just around the corner. Oddly enough, I get the sense that I’m at the end of something and on the edge of something grand, like I’ll be able to use my power to it’s full extent soon. It seems foolish to have such a thought at 25, but there are no rules on this place we call Earth after all

Something odd I notice is that I hold certain philosophies so dearly, yet I don’t live up to them. I don’t think this is a result of being a liar if we’re ever in this predicament, it just means there’s a discrepancy in our ideals and in how we act and the simple solution is to just change it

I just need to go easier on myself, I need to be more gentle with myself

Writing in this blog is a huge test for me as I have this vision of what I want my blog to become and this vision has kept me from starting a blog for so long. I’m a visionary, I have strong vision, that’s who I am, but I have to respect the creative process and learn once again how to love it as I once did

Consciousness Hijacking, an Energetic Vacuum

I constantly wonder why I let my energy be taken advantage of. I’m well aware that there are a myriad forces in our universe that seek to distract, leave us placid and lulled. I’m lucky I’m aware of it, but that doesn’t mean I don’t fall prey. Falling prey can lead to depression, anxiety, and a wide array of various spiritual-mental-emotional ailments. I’ll write about that more. For right now I’m more so trying to journal a bit. I mostly journal in pen as I suppose I’m quite old fashioned, but in any case, just writing things out really helps a lot. Words have power and that power festers away if we don’t use it. Words aren’t the only way to access our power, but words are one of the easiest ways. We can do it any time whether it be on our phones, on a piece of paper, or even just in speaking…Words access the purity of our intention and our truth. They access what we know but may not know we know

Right now, what I know is that I let things distract me constantly. Television shows, twitter, whatever it is, it distracts me. And all it leaves me with is dissatisfaction, guilt, depression, knowledge of all that lays latent but unaccessed, all I could do but just…don’t. It’s shameful, but shame is a worthless feeling in itself. I’m using these feelings to change my life. That’s the purpose of pain, of all these feelings we wish we didn’t have to feel. I have so many ideas, so many dreams, but I don’t actualize them because I let myself become distracted

We’re living in the toughest age there has ever been because distractions are everywhere and make no mistake, they’re attacking us on purpose. They want us to be depressed and hopelessly unaware of why we’re depressed. They want us to masturbate day after day without realizing the spiritual power held in the moment of orgasm, le petite mort, that little death. They want us to be mesmerized and enchanted by movies, shows, and social media so that we don’t think and dually so that whatever messages are being given us by these forms of media are delivered without our awareness and that could be good or bad. Then when we do begin to think, the unfamiliar, foreign pain comes onto us and we shove it away because we’re taught that pain is to be avoided. Anything that demands us to leave our comfortable states of anesthetization is evil. In truth, it’s these forces that desire to distract us  that are evil

What I know is that this is the ONLY thing that holds me back, that stands in deterrence of all I could do. So my challenge is to accept that I have to sacrifice how good it feels, admittedly so, to let myself be numbed. In the back of my mind, I’m always aware of what’s happening and the fact my energy is essentially being sucked away from me and I’m just left depressed and feeling hopeless because all of what I know I’m capable of is unrealized

My word is that I will take actions against this from now on. A year from now, it will no longer plague me. That is my word

I know how much I have to say, riding on the edge of my mind. It’s almost overwhelming in its vastness. My spirit guides are calling me to speak because that is my creative impulse, my gift. My gift is words and I have to use them. I can’t let my gift go unused. None of us can afford that for the sake of all of us collectively

My word is also that I’ll expound upon this. It’ll take time. I want to help people become aware. I have no audience at this point, but that is my hope, that I can help people find their truths and liberate themselves. There is certainly infinitely more to say on this ‘consciousness hijacking’ and the ‘energetic vacuum’

 

Science is primitive

Such a bold statement in most facets of society would be taken as insanity, madness, or more likely, pure stupidity, but I fully believe I can prove how primitive it is. This won’t be achieved in just one blog post, of course, but it’s one of the things I plan to address through my blog as it and I evolve

Humancentrism is a massive issue in society. We all, whether we choose the Atheistic path and reject the presence of ‘God’, or we’re shamelessly religious(whatever that religion may be) looking for something greater, something beyond, something transcendent, something to surrender to. Innately, we can all sense this transcendent ‘something’ converging in the undertones of all that we do. We’re all, though primarily subconsciously, searching for something greater, something grand, something beautiful

Even the Atheist may take solace in the delusion that they can live their lives without any spiritual repercussions. They’re simply here to live, breathe, and die,..and perhaps engage in any number of hedonistic pursuits., they’ve reached the dreadful edge of existentialism and have chosen to reject the existence of ‘something more’. Through this rejection, they give themselves ultimate power in their lives, they are the god, but this power is so illdirected it threatens the fabric of their spiritual being. We are demigods, but that power is not to be played with

Many of these Atheists I’ve encountered cling to science like it’s their bible because, well, it is their bible. They will listen to what scientists have to say and take it like it’s the Gospel truth. They don’t realize that they’re participating in the same behavior as hyperreligious folks they so detest with often dangerous passion. They’re just children lost and needing to cling to something that gives them a sense of control, a sense of power

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The thing is…science is such a human construct that it’s absurd to think science could possibly pierce the veil into the etheric strands that flow through our reality. Scientists, philosophers, psychologists… they’ve all pondered endlessly to their deaths the nature of our consciousness. What is our consciousness? Is it calculable? Is there a simple, elegant equation that yields the understanding of this obscure creature that seems to possess the uncanny ability to escape our grasp as soon as we get too close? Fuck no. The reason why science is so primitive is because it just can’t figure out what the fuck consciousness is and from where this enigmatic figure arrives. It’s so ethereal it will never be grasped. That isn’t to say we’re at its mercy, but just that science will never be able bag it and tag it, put it in a jar and set it on a shelf, put it under a microscope…you get the picture. It evades all Earthly means of gazing

Another vital point is that our minds recognize patterns and logic, causality, 2+1=3. But how can we actually prove that our minds are capable of understanding the fullness, the expansiveness of the universe? The only way to prove it would be to exit the confines our our brains and observe what’s really occurring. In truth, if we were able to do that, we’d find that the universe seems so chaotic, there is no order, no logic,…oh it would seem a scary place indeed. But we have our trusty logic to help us survive, eh? But because causality doesn’t really exist, anything is possible. Yup, anything is possible. We just have to accept that and come to terms with it just like we must come to terms with the fact our bodies will die and it could be in the most excruciatingly painful way possible, but we can’t live in constant fear of our death, can we?

Causality and the idea of dualism are vitally important to us, but I’ll expand on that later. My point is simply that the patterns we recognize don’t necessarily exist. It’s simply how our minds perceive and desperately attempt to understand this grim world we were thrown into. We desire to conquer it, to become our own gods. We are gods, but when our power is misused we fall into delusion

The people branded as insane, mad, unstable, unreliable, dreamers… they are possibly the most clearminded people we have here on this dear, grim planet. The delusion is that there is a singular order. This delusion is used to manipulate us so that we cage our own selves in and we lose the ability to think for ourselves, use our intuition…Intuition, one of the most powerful tools we were all endowed with and yet we reject it?? What fools we are!

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We know so much more than we think we do. We know, and yet the forces surrounding us are so powerful many forget and they’re never reminded

Scientific templates train us to think in a very strict manner, one that upends the skills we were endowed with that make us demigods, the skills that allow us to delve into the immaterial, pierce that veil and see just what there is to see beyond our piss ass five physical senses

‘I can’t help but think that the scientific mind reaches many walls where it concludes that something must be true because every principle, every calculation, every formula says it should be, but it’s not. And thus we have the paradox. Similarly it might conclude something must be true and yet it isn’t. The paradox. So it’ll tinker and tinker away trying to find where it went wrong all the while avoiding the horrific truth that all might be incalculable. Why does the paradox exist? Because all of what is is closer to making absolutely no sense than to making any sense. Not the kinda sense the scientific mind desires. The point so gravely missed and yet sitting right there on its desk collecting dust as years pass’ – lykan(me)

And trust me, I have so much more to say. I’ll expound more as my blog develops as this is quite foundational for beginning to start trying to understand my mind. My mind is a strange place, but it shows me many things that don’t come as easily to others and I’m grateful for it

I’m also always open to conversing with people and having civil disagreements… or not so civil. Sometimes people need to get angry and I don’t mind making people angry if it means I’m making them think and hopefully on their own reach new milestones in their awareness

Godspeed,

Celine Therese, lykan