Consciousness Hijacking, an Energetic Vacuum

I constantly wonder why I let my energy be taken advantage of. I’m well aware that there are a myriad forces in our universe that seek to distract, leave us placid and lulled. I’m lucky I’m aware of it, but that doesn’t mean I don’t fall prey. Falling prey can lead to depression, anxiety, and a wide array of various spiritual-mental-emotional ailments. I’ll write about that more. For right now I’m more so trying to journal a bit. I mostly journal in pen as I suppose I’m quite old fashioned, but in any case, just writing things out really helps a lot. Words have power and that power festers away if we don’t use it. Words aren’t the only way to access our power, but words are one of the easiest ways. We can do it any time whether it be on our phones, on a piece of paper, or even just in speaking…Words access the purity of our intention and our truth. They access what we know but may not know we know

Right now, what I know is that I let things distract me constantly. Television shows, twitter, whatever it is, it distracts me. And all it leaves me with is dissatisfaction, guilt, depression, knowledge of all that lays latent but unaccessed, all I could do but just…don’t. It’s shameful, but shame is a worthless feeling in itself. I’m using these feelings to change my life. That’s the purpose of pain, of all these feelings we wish we didn’t have to feel. I have so many ideas, so many dreams, but I don’t actualize them because I let myself become distracted

We’re living in the toughest age there has ever been because distractions are everywhere and make no mistake, they’re attacking us on purpose. They want us to be depressed and hopelessly unaware of why we’re depressed. They want us to masturbate day after day without realizing the spiritual power held in the moment of orgasm, le petite mort, that little death. They want us to be mesmerized and enchanted by movies, shows, and social media so that we don’t think and dually so that whatever messages are being given us by these forms of media are delivered without our awareness and that could be good or bad. Then when we do begin to think, the unfamiliar, foreign pain comes onto us and we shove it away because we’re taught that pain is to be avoided. Anything that demands us to leave our comfortable states of anesthetization is evil. In truth, it’s these forces that desire to distract usĀ  that are evil

What I know is that this is the ONLY thing that holds me back, that stands in deterrence of all I could do. So my challenge is to accept that I have to sacrifice how good it feels, admittedly so, to let myself be numbed. In the back of my mind, I’m always aware of what’s happening and the fact my energy is essentially being sucked away from me and I’m just left depressed and feeling hopeless because all of what I know I’m capable of is unrealized

My word is that I will take actions against this from now on. A year from now, it will no longer plague me. That is my word

I know how much I have to say, riding on the edge of my mind. It’s almost overwhelming in its vastness. My spirit guides are calling me to speak because that is my creative impulse, my gift. My gift is words and I have to use them. I can’t let my gift go unused. None of us can afford that for the sake of all of us collectively

My word is also that I’ll expound upon this. It’ll take time. I want to help people become aware. I have no audience at this point, but that is my hope, that I can help people find their truths and liberate themselves. There is certainly infinitely more to say on this ‘consciousness hijacking’ and the ‘energetic vacuum’


Science is primitive II

Here’s a foundational question to ask ourselves: “How do we know what exists outside the constraints of our human brains?” — People generally don’t have an answer and I must say, I enjoy that silence. I enjoy making people think just as much as I enjoy anyone who can make me think

Welcome to the rabbithole. Eventually, you realize that anything(and I do mean absolutely anything) is theoretically possible


Science is primitive

Such a bold statement in most facets of society would be taken as insanity, madness, or more likely, pure stupidity, but I fully believe I can prove how primitive it is. This won’t be achieved in just one blog post, of course, but it’s one of the things I plan to address through my blog as it and I evolve

Humancentrism is a massive issue in society. We all, whether we choose the Atheistic path and reject the presence of ‘God’, or we’re shamelessly religious(whatever that religion may be) looking for something greater, something beyond, something transcendent, something to surrender to. Innately, we can all sense this transcendent ‘something’ converging in the undertones of all that we do. We’re all, though primarily subconsciously, searching for something greater, something grand, something beautiful

Even the Atheist may take solace in the delusion that they can live their lives without any spiritual repercussions. They’re simply here to live, breathe, and die,..and perhaps engage in any number of hedonistic pursuits., they’ve reached the dreadful edge of existentialism and have chosen to reject the existence of ‘something more’. Through this rejection, they give themselves ultimate power in their lives, they are the god, but this power is so illdirected it threatens the fabric of their spiritual being. We are demigods, but that power is not to be played with

Many of these Atheists I’ve encountered cling to science like it’s their bible because, well, it is their bible. They will listen to what scientists have to say and take it like it’s the Gospel truth. They don’t realize that they’re participating in the same behavior as hyperreligious folks they so detest with often dangerous passion. They’re just children lost and needing to cling to something that gives them a sense of control, a sense of power


The thing is…science is such a human construct that it’s absurd to think science could possibly pierce the veil into the etheric strands that flow through our reality. Scientists, philosophers, psychologists… they’ve all pondered endlessly to their deaths the nature of our consciousness. What is our consciousness? Is it calculable? Is there a simple, elegant equation that yields the understanding of this obscure creature that seems to possess the uncanny ability to escape our grasp as soon as we get too close? Fuck no. The reason why science is so primitive is because it just can’t figure out what the fuck consciousness is and from where this enigmatic figure arrives. It’s so ethereal it will never be grasped. That isn’t to say we’re at its mercy, but just that science will never be able bag it and tag it, put it in a jar and set it on a shelf, put it under a microscope…you get the picture. It evades all Earthly means of gazing

Another vital point is that our minds recognize patterns and logic, causality, 2+1=3. But how can we actually prove that our minds are capable of understanding the fullness, the expansiveness of the universe? The only way to prove it would be to exit the confines our our brains and observe what’s really occurring. In truth, if we were able to do that, we’d find that the universe seems so chaotic, there is no order, no logic,…oh it would seem a scary place indeed. But we have our trusty logic to help us survive, eh? But because causality doesn’t really exist, anything is possible. Yup, anything is possible. We just have to accept that and come to terms with it just like we must come to terms with the fact our bodies will die and it could be in the most excruciatingly painful way possible, but we can’t live in constant fear of our death, can we?

Causality and the idea of dualism are vitally important to us, but I’ll expand on that later. My point is simply that the patterns we recognize don’t necessarily exist. It’s simply how our minds perceive and desperately attempt to understand this grim world we were thrown into. We desire to conquer it, to become our own gods. We are gods, but when our power is misused we fall into delusion

The people branded as insane, mad, unstable, unreliable, dreamers… they are possibly the most clearminded people we have here on this dear, grim planet. The delusion is that there is a singular order. This delusion is used to manipulate us so that we cage our own selves in and we lose the ability to think for ourselves, use our intuition…Intuition, one of the most powerful tools we were all endowed with and yet we reject it?? What fools we are!


We know so much more than we think we do. We know, and yet the forces surrounding us are so powerful many forget and they’re never reminded

Scientific templates train us to think in a very strict manner, one that upends the skills we were endowed with that make us demigods, the skills that allow us to delve into the immaterial, pierce that veil and see just what there is to see beyond our piss ass five physical senses

‘I can’t help but think that the scientific mind reaches many walls where it concludes that something must be true because every principle, every calculation, every formula says it should be, but it’s not. And thus we have the paradox. Similarly it might conclude something must be true and yet it isn’t. The paradox. So it’ll tinker and tinker away trying to find where it went wrong all the while avoiding the horrific truth that all might be incalculable. Why does the paradox exist? Because all of what is is closer to making absolutely no sense than to making any sense. Not the kinda sense the scientific mind desires. The point so gravely missed and yet sitting right there on its desk collecting dust as years pass’ – lykan(me)

And trust me, I have so much more to say. I’ll expound more as my blog develops as this is quite foundational for beginning to start trying to understand my mind. My mind is a strange place, but it shows me many things that don’t come as easily to others and I’m grateful for it

I’m also always open to conversing with people and having civil disagreements… or not so civil. Sometimes people need to get angry and I don’t mind making people angry if it means I’m making them think and hopefully on their own reach new milestones in their awareness


Celine Therese, lykan